I Love You

I hate confusion
I hate when you say something
and mean another
I hate when you lie
i hate the ticking clock,
the time
That tells me it's late for you
It's early yet for me and
i hate the hours that go by,
whispering that our days together
Are limited.
I hate the uncertain feeling
i get when your words are
short
When you don't meet my eyes and
your mouth is grim.
I hate so much
about this.
I hate the sun when
it shines on our anger
I hate the smile
that i miss on your face.        Oh hate!
It is much easier to hate than
to love.
So ready I am to hate the world
that pulls me away from you.
I forget so quickly
So quickly I forget:
     it isn't you I hate. No, no.
     i will not hate you. ever.
I only hate this life
These horrid circumstances
which make you sad, mean, and worried
I only hate the crowded
space in my heart that doesn't want to make room
My heart is so full it is hard to squeeze
you
In.
I only hate
the hated evil that
tears our fragile souls apart.
      I love you, my sweetest boy, I love you
i only hate
hating you.